Got home a little earlier, I had a long night awake in a hospital chair that was not made for sleeping, in a room with 3 other sick kids - anyway,
The surgery went well, 2 hours of hell for me, but she is home now and seems like a calm happy baby again.
This is not the route I wanted to go, I desperately wanted the beta blocker to work for her, but that's not here and now. The here and now is she is not in pain any longer...
Thank you all for your support.