no its NOT bad. its not like you went online shopped, bought yourself on ebay and got a really bad deal and no your really pissed off because you can't get a refund and the mailing address was a fake and the person is a fraud scamming people an you hate yourself for it......thats how you were made.
You may not be use to it but you do have to learn to cope with it. Don't let it be the end all of your life. research what you have and what you can expect from it. Education will help to understand your birthmark.